Love by Ellen Page

"love—the beauty of it, the joy of it, and yes, even the pain of it—is the most incredible gift to give and to receive as a human being. And we deserve to experience love fully, equally, without shame, and without compromise. "

Bravo, Ellen Page !!

Soulmate

i still believe in soulmates, your other half.
i believe it does exist.
but recently, i think it doesn't mean they should always end up being together.
the lucky ones find their soulmate and get a chance to spend the rest of their lives together. Maybe i'm just not one of the lucky one.

Old feelings

Old feelings surging back again.
I guess feelings don't really go away.

New Commitment

My new commitment: baca alkitab setiap hari.

why ? hari ini sempat ngomong panjang lebar dengan upline. awalnya males, maunya pake taktik lama..menghindar. but, i'm not a person yg menghindar, i face my fears and challenges. so, i try a different approach, aku ajak makan. lumayan juga sih, i see another side of them. sebetulnya konsistensi mereka perlu diacungi jempol juga, padahal aku sering ga angkat tlp, ga balas bb. tp setiap kali ketemu mereka selalu semangat and ga menyerah sama aku, actually i feel kinda special. keluar juga kenapa aku terhambat, rasa sungkan, dan seems like they understand. well, hopefully they do. and ci Ln bilang aku berkomitmen dengan sebisaku aja, but be consistent. i'll try. dan i'll start dengan membaca alkitab setiap hari.. let's see how consistent i am. 

btw, bbrp hari belakangan ini Id mulai contact lagi. kadang kirim2 random pics, like before. tp aku ga berani terlalu menanggapi, meskipun, i'm excited inside. doesn't she know i can fall for her again? damn... 

True honesty

"I want to be honest but not hurtful" - Portia de Rossi

I can love again

It's been almost a year since my last post. Many things happened.

But one thing I noticed significant, I can love again.

Love, a feeling I never thought I could feel again. But it happened, again :D

Even if it's unrequited love, I'm still happy to now "I can love again"

Reverse discrimination

An interesting comment from Paulo Coelho's blog:

My sister once said to me in almost a whisper “Ive met someone, shes awesome and beautiful and funny, but shes a girl, what should I do?” And I quoted her from a book that I truly identify with:

In todays society its so easy to label and judge people, its so easy to throw away what doesnt work or is too much work, but what about love? If you are lucky enough to find someone to love and by magical luck they love you back, then you should cherish it because love, REAL love is very hard to find.

And so she did, she followed her heart and fought to dispell so much of the prejudice that still sadly exists in today’s society, that gay people are perverts, that gay love is not normal, that it goes against nature. The relationship ran its natural course and my sister sent me another email “Oh my God! Ive met a guy I like, I dont understand, Im gay at least I thought I was, maybe Im bi? What should I do?” This time I quote myself, from what she taught me:

You are not gay or bi or any other label society wishes to throw at you. You are who you are, you didn't confirm to what society expected when you entered into a homosexual relationship, why would you be limiting yourself now? Its reverse discrimination. It comes down to love…. we love people for who they are, not what label they happen to be wearing.

It's "reverse discrimination" I love this term.